I am anxious through all five of our other Van
1 runners. I am not excited. I am not
certain I can complete my leg. The lower
part of my Achilles tendon on the inside of my left heel is very tight, and I feel it strain every time I push off. I've known this was a problem. I am certain it
will tear. Every foot fall of my 7-mile
run, I compensate, making micro-adjustments to how I land, how I thrust, how my ankles rotate, how I bear
weight on my hips, on my knees, on both sides of my body. It is exhausting. I can feel the realignment work its
way up to the tendons, straining at the top of my quads. I have 10.5 more miles after this, if I even make it
through this fucking leg. Let’s just
make it through this fucking leg.
I roll deep into Sandy and come across the first in a string of volunteers. I hadn't let myself hope, but now I know I'm close:
"Right at the light, you're almost there"
At the light:
"Stay on the shoulder, just couple hundred yards, almost there"
I runstumble on the graveled shoulder to a cross walk:
"Just across the street, almost there"
Across:
"Just down this path to that arch, almost there"
Down the path, under the arch:
"Through that tunnel, take a right. Almost there!"
Through the fucking tunnel:
"Cross over to that path along the pile of skulls, so close!"
Cross to the path. Nearby I see lots of relay participants. I must be close.
"Run along the backstop, don't make eye contact. Almost there!"
Stagger past the backstop:
"Up this bark-chipy path, around the clubhouse... sooo close!"
Each foot sinks deeper. Hope is extinguished. I never get there. I die, exhaling hot, dry slivers.
But then I'm there, at the exchange. I give the bracelet to Runner 7 from Van 2. The Van 1 crew pat me on the back, we load into the van, and drive to someone's house. We shower, eat, and lay still with our eyes closed. I wouldn't call it sleep. In a few short hours, we’re back on the
road.

